Unpacking, Volume 2: The Great Rebellion

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As more "incidents" occurred, I thought I was ready to rack up a few incidents of my own. I did, and felt SO guilty that I soon quit and returned faithfully to my unhappy marriage.

A few years later, I decided I was fine and began to work on an escape plan. This time I was completely disconnected in every way AND though I was still working faithfully in the church, I had missed quite a few months of any service due to working in ministry. Church had become a 3rd job and there were no opportunities to refill my cup.

At this same time I developed a closer relationship with a friend. We had known each other for a while but we had started becoming closer. I was picking him up from work in the evenings and we would talk. About surface things at first, then we realized we had a lot of things in common... like we weren't happy in our marriages. We compared stories.  He was broken, I was broken, and now looking back at it all, I feel that our brokenness is what originally attracted us to each other. Together we began to rack up our own "incidents."

Ever been out of town for a rendezvous while you were married, with your married lover, and walk dead, smack into your pastor's niece? Well, we did.

Us:


Her:


Situation Side Chick/Boyfriend #2:


**Be careful of where where you spend your time, especially when you're spiritually drained. Though I believe my current husband is the one I'm meant to be with, I believe we could've and should've divorced BEFORE we began a relationship. But... we didn't! ...and for every action, there is a consequence.

Next post: Unpacking, Volume 3: When It All Blows Up In Your Face...



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